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1月22日

WORDS

 
An invisable sea of words in my head
Only some words come out
They all look red
 
What has done such a # on you
Sit back relax,. drink a mountain dew
 
 if you find u cant handle it today
Just think its life telling you to go home or play!
Take a rest and gather your mind
Otherwise nothing will get done and you will be in a bind
Spinning thoughts in a sea of words
Flying through my brain
Like a wave of birds
 
An invisable sea of words in my head
Only some words come out
They all look red
 
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9月19日

BLANK TO FIX

 
Take a breath and hold on to this ride
Dont let life stomp out your pride
Youre a bright fire that is burnning bright
You are a star and you create light
Run hard and run fast
Dont get there last
Breath to survive
Live to strive
Let your self fall into 
Being alive
 
Blank to Fix
 
Blank to fix
Eat your twix
let your mind wander lose
Dont get lost
Imagination, contemplation,aggrivation, domination 
Submission
Loseing to an invisable player
Dig deep through the layers
Grasp at God and pray your prayers
 
Blank and under construction
Imagination, contemplation, aggrivation, domination
Submission

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9月11日

SILENCE

 
 
As i sit here writting in shades of grey
I cant think of anything to say
I miss you already,
 
My heart ach's
And my hand is not steady 
 
Hugs and kisses i will have to give extra
Oh man, we all sure miss ya!!!
 
Soft kisses i miss so much
looking forward to your solid touch
I wish you well on your adventure
 
Come back soon,
Hold me forever
your my ground
you hold me together
 

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3月3日

REPORT

 
 someone reported my site as offensive
 To the person who reported my site to windows live
 
Its not fair that you busted me
If not for you, windows live would let me be
For over 3 years i hade nudeity on my site
Are you such a prude you got a fright?
It was a tattooed peinis, it was really kinda cool!!
Im not posting porn,.. im posteing news you fool!!
Why dont you report the otheres in this world
Who preach raceizum and hate to get your fill
Or if you really wanna help the world
Get out on the street yourself
Stop the rapest or the murder'r
Or the drug dealer sitting in the park amoung our children
Smokeing a BIG FAT JOINT?!?!?!?!
Whats wrong with a pic done in good taste?
It wasnt porn, it was a tattoo,.. just on an unfortunate place
There is a warning at the top of my page
18 + ,.. cant look at my site unless your of age!!!  ( in canada 18 is the legial age ) 
If you reported my pics cause you found them rude
Have a cup of tea and buck up you freakin prude!!!
 
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edited for language due to some up tight person who could not handel a tattooed penis
 
 
 
 
12月14日

ANOTHER

 
 
Another day
Another week
Another month
Another year
 
What have you done?
 
Have you shed any fear?
 
This is just another month for so many
People feel alone
Even when sourrounded plenty
Some people feel happy even though they are alone
 
A new year is upon us
Have you grown?
 
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10月6日

ABOUT LIFE

 
 
The things we share and the things we do
Who are they ment for,.. me or you
LIfe is so special in every way
Remember to tell the people you love,.. that you care for them
Tell them today!!
For tommorow may be to late
Its not up to you
Its all up to fate
Dont judge
Dont hate
Do it now
Dont waite
Appreciate the little things
Open your heart
And spread your wings!
Tell the truth and belive it will set you free
If you dont belive me try it and see
The truth may hurt and cut your soul
But is'nt it better then drownding in the sorrow?
I guess the point of this blog,..
Is to tell you all not to get lost in lifes fog
Be true to yourself and others around you
Love freely, Give freely
And cherish the ones,..
That love you!!!
 
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7月10日

EVERYTHING

 
 
Everything i have ever wanted
 I have
Why did i ask so many quesitons
Why did i look everywhere but my own back yard?
I have been searching for answeres
for a long, long time.
Looking in all the wrong places
see it there?
Pick up that dime.
Wanting and looking so hard
I already had it all
Boy,.. do i feel like a retard!
I asked God when i was a child
To send me a man
Whos loveing and wild
I was looking for love of a kind
It was right there in my face
What the hells my problem,..
I must have been blind
I have thought about it alot
Im a mother,
A wife
Theres no guide to life
We are all self taught
 
One of the things that keeps me going
Is to get out of this stupid thing called self loathing
I want to see what i have been missing
My children, my husband 
I will be kissing
How do we better ourselfs in life
I want to be a strong independent person
And a better wife 
 
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6月12日

SO YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING EH?

Email sent to me by my friend Kelly Wakefield          

 

 

SO YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING?

A dime has 118 ridges around the edge.

A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.

A crocodile cannot stick out its tongue.

A dragonfly has a life span of 24 hours.

A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds.

A "jiffy" is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second.

A shark is the only fish that can blink with both eyes.

A snail can sleep for three years.

Al Capone's business card said he was a used furniture dealer.

All 50 states are listed across the top of the Lincoln Memorial on the back of the $5 bill.

Almonds are a member of the peach family.

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.

Babies are born without kneecaps. They don't appear until the child reaches 2 to 6 years of age.

Butterflies taste with their feet.

Cats have over one hundred vocal sounds. Dogs only have about 10.

"Dreamt" is the only English word that ends in the letters "mt".

February 1865 is the only month in recorded history not to have a full moon.

In the last 4,000 years, no new animals have been domesticated.

If the population of China walked past you, in single file, the line would never end because of the
rate of reproduction.

If you are an average American, in your whole life, you will spend an average of 6 months waiting at red lights.

It's impossible to sneeze with your eyes open.

Leonardo Da Vinci invented the scissors.

Maine is the only state whose name is just one syllable.

No word in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, or purple.

On a Canadian two dollar bill, the flag flying over the Parliament building is an American flag.

Our eyes are always the same size from birth, but our nose and ears never stop growing.

Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynamite.

Rubber bands last longer when refrigerated.

"Stewardesses" is the longest word typed with only the left hand and "lollipop" with your right.

The average person's left hand does 56% of the typing.

The cruise liner, QE2, moves only six inches for each gallon of diesel that it burns.

The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.

The sentence: "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog" uses every letter of the alphabet.

The winter of 1932 was so cold that Niagara Falls froze completely solid.

The words 'racecar,' 'kayak' and 'level' are the same whether they are read left to right or right to left (palindromes).

There are 293 ways to make change for a dollar.

There are more chickens than people in the world.

There are only four words in the English language which end in "dous":tremendous, horrendous, stupendous, and hazardous.

There are two words in the English language that have all five vowels in order: "abstemious" and "facetious."

There's no Betty Rubble in the Flintstones Chewables Vitamins.

Tigers have striped skin, not just striped fur.

TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.

Winston Churchill was born in a ladies' room during a dance.

Women blink nearly twice as much as men.

Your stomach has to produce a new layer of mucus every two weeks; otherwise it will digest itself.

NOW, you know everything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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5月28日

TEST FOR DEMENTIA

EMAIL SENT TO ME BY KELLY WAKEFIELD
 
Test for Dementia
Below are four (4) questions and a bonus question. You have to answer them
instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately. OK?


Let's find out just how clever you really are....


Ready? GO!!! (scroll down)

First Question:

You are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What
position are you in?


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Answer: If you answered that you are first, then you are
absolutely wrong! If you overtake the second person and you take his place,
you are second!

Try not to screw up next time.
Now answer the second question,
but don't take as much time as you took for the first question, OK?

Second Question:
If you overtake the last person, then you are...?


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Answer: If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong
again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST Person?


You're not very good at this, are you?


Third Question:
Very tricky arithmetic! Note: This must be done in your head only
Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it.



Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000. Now add 30.
Add another 1000. Now add 20. Now add another 1000
Now add 10. What is the total?


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Did you get 5000?

The correct answer is actually 4100.



If you don't believe it, check it with a calculator!
Today is definitely not your day, is it?
Maybe you'll get the last question right....
....Maybe.

Fourth Question:


Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini,
4. Nono. What is the name of the fifth daughter?

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Did you Answer Nunu?
NO! Of course it isn't.
Her name is Mary. Read the question again!


Okay, now the bonus round:

A mute person goes into a shop and wants to buy a toothbrush. By
imitating the action of brushing his teeth he successfully
expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is
done.

Next, a blind man comes into the shop who wants to buy a pair of
sunglasses; how does HE indicate what he wants?


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He just has to open his mouth and ask..
It's really very simple....



KEEP THIS GOING TO FRUSTRATE THE
SMART PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE
 
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TOO MUCH TIME ON YOUR HADS

THIS EMAIL WAS SENT TO ME BY KELLY WAKEFIELD
 

   This has got to be one of the cleverest
E-mails I've received in awhile.
Someone out there either has too much
spare time or is deadly at Scrabble.
(Wait till you see the last one)! 
 

DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM 

PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER 

ASTRONOMER:
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER 

DESPERATION:When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT 

THE EYES:!
When you rearrange the letters:
THEY SEE 

GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE 

THE MORSE CODE:
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS 

SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME 

ANIMOSITY:
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY 

ELECTION RESULTS:
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT 

SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S 

A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters:
IM A DOT IN PLACE 

THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE 

ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE 
 

AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE: 

MOTHER-IN-LAW:
When you rearrange the letters:
WOMAN HITLER
 
THE LAST ONE IS MY FAV
 
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5月13日

I

I feel used
I feel traped
I feel alone
I feel lost
I feel angry
I feel pain
I feel numb
I feel hate
I feel dispare
I feel dizy
I feel contempt
I feel cold
I feel lucid
Like everything is a nightmare and i cant wake up
I try to run but im stuck
I try to scream but my voice is gone
I try to cry,.. but there are no tears
I walk alone
I pick up the peaces
I do the best i can
I sob when no one is looking
Im dead inside when you see me danceing
I am gone inside when you think i am here
Wishing for something more
I am loseing my grip and im starting to trip
Numb and decomposed
beyond all repair
I am who i am
Is that fair?
I feel used
I feel traped
I feel alone
I feel lost
I feel angry
I feel numb
 
 
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5月10日

MOTHER

The blue part of this blog is part of an email sent to me by my friend Kelly Wakefield
 
Mothers day is comming up fast,.. to be homest im not to sure when it is anymore,.. seeing as i have no mother to celebrate anymore.  Kelly sent me an email that made me cry and this is just part of it.  its kinda sappy so if your not into sappy shit,.. skip this blog
Your Mother is always with you.... She's the whisper
of the leaves as you walk down the street; she's the smell of bleach
in your freshly laundered socks; she's the cool hand
on your brow when you're not well. Your Mother lives
inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop.
She's the place you came from, your first home; and
she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love
and your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can
separate you.
 
I miss you mom every day is so hard with out you
I try to do my best,
sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is
knowing your with me in some way
even though i cant hear you
i cant see you
i cant feel you
i cant hold you
I said it once in a poem called "cancer" under the category "ramblings"
Just to get over you
I pretend you were never alive
 I miss you
 
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5月9日

I WAS SOOOOO SICK

Cold chills
Crazy thrills
To fall into bed
Only to wish you were dead
Feaverd dreams
Wishing for icecream
Near the end of it
The flue kicked me down
I slept 28 hours
Woke up in a daze
I dont remember anything
Its all a haze
 
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5月1日

FRUSTRATED

 

You slap at my hand like I am a child

Back me into a corner and watch me turn wild

Why am I feeling like this?

Nothing I do is right?

Even when I try you don’t seem to notice

Tell me im stupid or call me im an idiot

It does not matter anymore

I have just learned to ignore it

That’s why it seems as though im not listening

When you start flapping your mouth

My heart starts bleeding

Remembering this feeling from child hood

My brother did it to me

Just because he could

Made me feel like I was going crazy

No matter how much you explain to me

It’s the hurtful words that make me frown

It’s better to forget and just turn numb

Maybe that why you think I am dumb

Frustration takes a hold the second it starts

You probably dont care but my heart is torn apart

 

 

I’m sure your mad and frustrated with me

I’m doing what I can

Sorry it’s not perfect as can be

 

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FROM ONE TO THE NEXT

One min you love me
The next you tell me im stupid
One min you praise me
The next you tell me im doing it all wrong
One min you say im the best
The next you tell me how worthless i am
You bring up things from years ago that have nothing to do with today
You use them to put me down
And you tell me your going away
You say i dont want to,.. cant learn or just dont care
I try so fucking hard
You could try to see that
That would at least be fairr
Sure your mad because of me
But you dont have to call me down
In front of my kids,... you dont see there faces behind your back you dont see them frown
 
It does not seem to matter what i have to say
Any thing that comes out of my mouth is wrong
It does not matter what time of day
Im tired of being put down just cause your irritated
My love for life is slowly fadding
If you say a lie long enough
You will eventually belive it
Did you know im tired of being called stupid?
 
My life is hard enough
Without having to walk on eggshells around you
I try to do it all
But for you its not good enough
So i fuck up here and there
But so does everyone else
I dont ask you to come rescue me
I do try to fix it myself
Im not aloud to scream and shout
I have no release
And im a bitch if i pout
I dont even  know what to say anymore
I roll my eyes and hum and haw
Ill tell you why that is
It seems you  dont talk to me
You just scream ans shout
Im hurt by your words
But you probably dont care cause your always right
Im at the point of  saying yes
Just to avoid a fight
 

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4月26日

ONLY IN DARKNESS

I read this poem one day on line and it struck me stupid because i belive it to be true

 

In the Darkness,
I am hidden,
concealed, protected…

Protected from scorn,
embarrassment, criticism,
and judgment…

Judgment of those who
think they’re better than me
just because I’m not like them,
I’m different, unusual,
a freak.

In the Darkness,
all are hidden,
concealed,
anonymous,
equal.

Only in Darkness, can EVERYONE be equal.

 

 

Poem by:  JB  (A.K.A.HiddenShaddow)

4月22日

ODE TO MY SON

Sons birthday party is today  no one had arrived yet and im  already tired lol
 
An ode to my son
Your always so much fun
Playing tricks and hideing from me
Hey is that you behind that tree?
With a poarch a fence and a yard
Its awlays play time
You can ask anyone!! im not being obserd
Life is full of fun and strange little quarks
It will never flow if you dont do the hard work
 
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4月20日

GOING GOING GONE

Going crazy,... loseing my mind
People will tell you im one of a kind
Planning and scheeming
Loseing controle
I want it all
Even the candy with the hole
Touch me here and lift my soul
To die happy
Is how i want to go
Going crazy,... loseing my sanity
Everyone will tell you that i use profanity
Only to express the most uncontrolable urge
I want it all
Even the feeling of an electrical surge
Im not loseing it
It just went for a walk
Get my self of the edge of the cliff
I must convince my self by talk
Going crazy,... lost controle
Please! PLEASE wont you help me find my soul?
 
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4月17日

STREETS OF WINNIPEG

The road is long and rocky

Full of pot holes and rock candy

Why cant we drive down a peace of street

Thats clean, plesent to look at and neat?

This is a plea to all in power

Clean the streets of winnipeg

The open road is looking like a dumpster

Gargabe and dust cover the sidewalk

Time to pick it up Mayor!

Come on lets talk!

I want clean streets for my kids to walk down

I look out my window and i frown

 

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4月13日

MORE SAPPY CRAP

WHAT ARE YOU TAKING ABOUT?!?!
IM NOT ABOUT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT
JUST TO GET YOUR ATTENTION
OR DID I FORGET TO MENTION
THAT I COULD CARE LESS
YOU CAUSE ME SO MUCH STRESS
ITS NOT FORTUNATE AT ALL
I DONT WANT IT IN MY COURT
I DONT WANT THAT BALL!!
I TRY TO BE A GOOD SPORT
BUT ALL YOU DO IT TAKE FROM ME
GOD DO YOU HEAR WHATS IN MY HEART?
IM COMMING APART
THE CORE OF MY SOUL IS CRYING
I GUESS I SHOULD BE HAPPY
IM NOT THE ONE WHOS DIEING
THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED TIME
THERE IS NOT ALOT LEFT
JUST LIKE MY MOTHER
FOR WHOM I HAVE ALREADY WEPT
LISTEN TO ME DAMIT
ITS ALL SO UNFORTUNATE
WITH ALL THESE MEDICAL MERICALS
CANT YOU LET HER HAVE ONE?
I AM HYSTARICAL!
 
 
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