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1月22日 WORDSAn invisable sea of words in my head
Only some words come out
They all look red
What has done such a # on you
Sit back relax,. drink a mountain dew
if you find u cant handle it today
Just think its life telling you to go home or play!
Take a rest and gather your mind
Otherwise nothing will get done and you will be in a bind
Spinning thoughts in a sea of words
Flying through my brain
Like a wave of birds
An invisable sea of words in my head
Only some words come out
They all look red ¤Âñgè£ûs¤ 9月19日 BLANK TO FIXTake a breath and hold on to this ride
Dont let life stomp out your pride
Youre a bright fire that is burnning bright
You are a star and you create light
Run hard and run fast
Dont get there last
Breath to survive
Live to strive
Let your self fall into
Being alive
Blank to Fix
Blank to fix
Eat your twix
let your mind wander lose
Dont get lost
Imagination, contemplation,aggrivation, domination
Submission
Loseing to an invisable player
Dig deep through the layers
Grasp at God and pray your prayers
Blank and under construction
Imagination, contemplation, aggrivation, domination
Submission
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9月11日 SILENCEAs i sit here writting in shades of grey
I cant think of anything to say
I miss you already,
My heart ach's
And my hand is not steady
Hugs and kisses i will have to give extra
Oh man, we all sure miss ya!!!
Soft kisses i miss so much
looking forward to your solid touch
I wish you well on your adventure
Come back soon,
Hold me forever
your my ground
you hold me together
¤Âñgè£ûs¤ 3月3日 REPORT someone reported my site as offensive
To the person who reported my site to windows live
Its not fair that you busted me
If not for you, windows live would let me be
For over 3 years i hade nudeity on my site
Are you such a prude you got a fright?
It was a tattooed peinis, it was really kinda cool!!
Im not posting porn,.. im posteing news you fool!!
Why dont you report the otheres in this world
Who preach raceizum and hate to get your fill
Or if you really wanna help the world
Get out on the street yourself
Stop the rapest or the murder'r
Or the drug dealer sitting in the park amoung our children
Smokeing a BIG FAT JOINT?!?!?!?!
Whats wrong with a pic done in good taste?
It wasnt porn, it was a tattoo,.. just on an unfortunate place
There is a warning at the top of my page
18 + ,.. cant look at my site unless your of age!!! ( in canada 18 is the legial age )
If you reported my pics cause you found them rude
Have a cup of tea and buck up you freakin prude!!!
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edited for language due to some up tight person who could not handel a tattooed penis
12月14日 ANOTHERAnother day
Another week
Another month
Another year
What have you done?
Have you shed any fear?
This is just another month for so many
People feel alone
Even when sourrounded plenty
Some people feel happy even though they are alone
A new year is upon us
Have you grown?
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10月6日 ABOUT LIFEThe things we share and the things we do
Who are they ment for,.. me or you
LIfe is so special in every way
Remember to tell the people you love,.. that you care for them
Tell them today!!
For tommorow may be to late
Its not up to you
Its all up to fate
Dont judge
Dont hate
Do it now
Dont waite
Appreciate the little things
Open your heart
And spread your wings!
Tell the truth and belive it will set you free
If you dont belive me try it and see
The truth may hurt and cut your soul
But is'nt it better then drownding in the sorrow?
I guess the point of this blog,..
Is to tell you all not to get lost in lifes fog
Be true to yourself and others around you
Love freely, Give freely
And cherish the ones,..
That love you!!!
¤Âñgè£ûs¤ 7月10日 EVERYTHINGEverything i have ever wanted
I have
Why did i ask so many quesitons
Why did i look everywhere but my own back yard?
I have been searching for answeres
for a long, long time.
Looking in all the wrong places
see it there?
Pick up that dime.
Wanting and looking so hard
I already had it all
Boy,.. do i feel like a retard!
I asked God when i was a child
To send me a man
Whos loveing and wild
I was looking for love of a kind
It was right there in my face
What the hells my problem,..
I must have been blind
I have thought about it alot
Im a mother,
A wife
Theres no guide to life
We are all self taught
One of the things that keeps me going
Is to get out of this stupid thing called self loathing
I want to see what i have been missing
My children, my husband
I will be kissing
How do we better ourselfs in life
I want to be a strong independent person
And a better wife
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6月12日 SO YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING EH?Email sent to me by my friend Kelly Wakefield
SO YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING?
¤Âñgè£ûs¤ 5月28日 TEST FOR DEMENTIAEMAIL SENT TO ME BY KELLY WAKEFIELD
Test for Dementia
Below are four (4) questions and a bonus question. You have to answer them instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately. OK? Let's find out just how clever you really are.... Ready? GO!!! (scroll down) First Question: You are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What position are you in? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Answer: If you answered that you are first, then you are absolutely wrong! If you overtake the second person and you take his place, you are second! Try not to screw up next time. Now answer the second question, but don't take as much time as you took for the first question, OK? Second Question: If you overtake the last person, then you are...? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Answer: If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST Person? You're not very good at this, are you? Third Question: Very tricky arithmetic! Note: This must be done in your head only Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it. Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000. Now add 30. Add another 1000. Now add 20. Now add another 1000 Now add 10. What is the total? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Did you get 5000? The correct answer is actually 4100. If you don't believe it, check it with a calculator! Today is definitely not your day, is it? Maybe you'll get the last question right.... ....Maybe. Fourth Question: Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini, 4. Nono. What is the name of the fifth daughter? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Did you Answer Nunu? NO! Of course it isn't. Her name is Mary. Read the question again! Okay, now the bonus round: A mute person goes into a shop and wants to buy a toothbrush. By imitating the action of brushing his teeth he successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is done. Next, a blind man comes into the shop who wants to buy a pair of sunglasses; how does HE indicate what he wants? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ He just has to open his mouth and ask.. It's really very simple.... KEEP THIS GOING TO FRUSTRATE THE SMART PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE ¤Âñgè£ûs¤ TOO MUCH TIME ON YOUR HADSTHIS EMAIL WAS SENT TO ME BY KELLY WAKEFIELD
This has got to be one of the cleverest E-mails I've received in awhile. Someone out there either has too much spare time or is deadly at Scrabble. (Wait till you see the last one)! DORMITORY: When you rearrange the letters: DIRTY ROOM PRESBYTERIAN: When you rearrange the letters: BEST IN PRAYER ASTRONOMER: When you rearrange the letters: MOON STARER DESPERATION:When you rearrange the letters: A ROPE ENDS IT THE EYES:! When you rearrange the letters: THEY SEE GEORGE BUSH: When you rearrange the letters: HE BUGS GORE THE MORSE CODE: When you rearrange the letters: HERE COME DOTS SLOT MACHINES: When you rearrange the letters: CASH LOST IN ME ANIMOSITY: When you rearrange the letters: IS NO AMITY ELECTION RESULTS: When you rearrange the letters: LIES - LET'S RECOUNT SNOOZE ALARMS: When you rearrange the letters: ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S A DECIMAL POINT: When you rearrange the letters: IM A DOT IN PLACE THE EARTHQUAKES: When you rearrange the letters: THAT QUEER SHAKE ELEVEN PLUS TWO: When you rearrange the letters: TWELVE PLUS ONE AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE: MOTHER-IN-LAW: When you rearrange the letters: WOMAN HITLER THE LAST ONE IS MY FAV
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5月13日 II feel used
I feel traped
I feel alone
I feel lost
I feel angry
I feel pain
I feel numb
I feel hate
I feel dispare
I feel dizy
I feel contempt
I feel cold
I feel lucid
Like everything is a nightmare and i cant wake up
I try to run but im stuck
I try to scream but my voice is gone
I try to cry,.. but there are no tears
I walk alone
I pick up the peaces
I do the best i can
I sob when no one is looking
Im dead inside when you see me danceing
I am gone inside when you think i am here
Wishing for something more
I am loseing my grip and im starting to trip
Numb and decomposed
beyond all repair
I am who i am
Is that fair?
I feel used
I feel traped
I feel alone
I feel lost
I feel angry
I feel numb
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5月10日 MOTHERThe blue part of this blog is part of an email sent to me by my friend Kelly Wakefield
Mothers day is comming up fast,.. to be homest im not to sure when it is anymore,.. seeing as i have no mother to celebrate anymore. Kelly sent me an email that made me cry and this is just part of it. its kinda sappy so if your not into sappy shit,.. skip this blog
Your Mother is always with you.... She's the whisper
of the leaves as you walk down the street; she's the smell of bleach in your freshly laundered socks; she's the cool hand on your brow when you're not well. Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop. She's the place you came from, your first home; and she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love and your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can separate you. I miss you mom every day is so hard with out you
I try to do my best,
sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is
knowing your with me in some way
even though i cant hear you
i cant see you
i cant feel you
i cant hold you
I said it once in a poem called "cancer" under the category "ramblings"
Just to get over you
I pretend you were never alive
I miss you
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5月9日 I WAS SOOOOO SICKCold chills
Crazy thrills
To fall into bed
Only to wish you were dead
Feaverd dreams
Wishing for icecream
Near the end of it
The flue kicked me down
I slept 28 hours
Woke up in a daze
I dont remember anything
Its all a haze
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5月1日 FRUSTRATEDYou slap at my hand like I am a child Back me into a corner and watch me turn wild Why am I feeling like this? Nothing I do is right? Even when I try you don’t seem to notice Tell me im stupid or call me im an idiot It does not matter anymore I have just learned to ignore it That’s why it seems as though im not listening When you start flapping your mouth My heart starts bleeding Remembering this feeling from child hood My brother did it to me Just because he could Made me feel like I was going crazy No matter how much you explain to me It’s the hurtful words that make me frown It’s better to forget and just turn numb Maybe that why you think I am dumb Frustration takes a hold the second it starts You probably dont care but my heart is torn apart
I’m sure your mad and frustrated with me I’m doing what I can Sorry it’s not perfect as can be
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FROM ONE TO THE NEXTOne min you love me
The next you tell me im stupid
One min you praise me
The next you tell me im doing it all wrong
One min you say im the best
The next you tell me how worthless i am
You bring up things from years ago that have nothing to do with today
You use them to put me down
And you tell me your going away
You say i dont want to,.. cant learn or just dont care
I try so fucking hard
You could try to see that
That would at least be fairr
Sure your mad because of me
But you dont have to call me down
In front of my kids,... you dont see there faces behind your back you dont see them frown
It does not seem to matter what i have to say
Any thing that comes out of my mouth is wrong
It does not matter what time of day
Im tired of being put down just cause your irritated
My love for life is slowly fadding
If you say a lie long enough
You will eventually belive it
Did you know im tired of being called stupid?
My life is hard enough
Without having to walk on eggshells around you
I try to do it all
But for you its not good enough
So i fuck up here and there
But so does everyone else
I dont ask you to come rescue me
I do try to fix it myself
Im not aloud to scream and shout
I have no release
And im a bitch if i pout
I dont even know what to say anymore
I roll my eyes and hum and haw
Ill tell you why that is
It seems you dont talk to me
You just scream ans shout
Im hurt by your words
But you probably dont care cause your always right
Im at the point of saying yes
Just to avoid a fight
¤Âñgè£ûs¤ 4月26日 ONLY IN DARKNESSI read this poem one day on line and it struck me stupid because i belive it to be true
In the Darkness, Protected from scorn, Judgment of those who In the Darkness, Only in Darkness, can EVERYONE be equal.
Poem by: JB (A.K.A.HiddenShaddow) 4月22日 ODE TO MY SONSons birthday party is today
An ode to my son
Your always so much fun
Playing tricks and hideing from me
Hey is that you behind that tree?
With a poarch a fence and a yard
Its awlays play time
You can ask anyone!! im not being obserd
Life is full of fun and strange little quarks
It will never flow if you dont do the hard work
¤Âñgè£ûs¤ 4月20日 GOING GOING GONEGoing crazy,... loseing my mind
People will tell you im one of a kind
Planning and scheeming
Loseing controle
I want it all
Even the candy with the hole
Touch me here and lift my soul
To die happy
Is how i want to go
Going crazy,... loseing my sanity
Everyone will tell you that i use profanity
Only to express the most uncontrolable urge
I want it all
Even the feeling of an electrical surge
Im not loseing it
It just went for a walk
Get my self of the edge of the cliff
I must convince my self by talk
Going crazy,... lost controle
Please! PLEASE wont you help me find my soul?
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4月17日 STREETS OF WINNIPEGThe road is long and rocky Full of pot holes and rock candy Why cant we drive down a peace of street Thats clean, plesent to look at and neat? This is a plea to all in power Clean the streets of winnipeg The open road is looking like a dumpster Gargabe and dust cover the sidewalk Time to pick it up Mayor! Come on lets talk! I want clean streets for my kids to walk down I look out my window and i frown ¤Âñgè£ûs¤
4月13日 MORE SAPPY CRAPWHAT ARE YOU TAKING ABOUT?!?!
IM NOT ABOUT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT
JUST TO GET YOUR ATTENTION
OR DID I FORGET TO MENTION
THAT I COULD CARE LESS
YOU CAUSE ME SO MUCH STRESS
ITS NOT FORTUNATE AT ALL
I DONT WANT IT IN MY COURT
I DONT WANT THAT BALL!!
I TRY TO BE A GOOD SPORT
BUT ALL YOU DO IT TAKE FROM ME
GOD DO YOU HEAR WHATS IN MY HEART?
IM COMMING APART
THE CORE OF MY SOUL IS CRYING
I GUESS I SHOULD BE HAPPY
IM NOT THE ONE WHOS DIEING
THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED TIME
THERE IS NOT ALOT LEFT
JUST LIKE MY MOTHER
FOR WHOM I HAVE ALREADY WEPT
LISTEN TO ME DAMIT
ITS ALL SO UNFORTUNATE
WITH ALL THESE MEDICAL MERICALS
CANT YOU LET HER HAVE ONE?
I AM HYSTARICAL!
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